Post by adreannaTal{fb} on Jan 21, 2011 16:48:06 GMT -5
ASSIGNMENT #1
"Relate exactly what loyalty to one's Home & collar means to you as a slave"
5 PHARAGRAPH MINIMUM
our Master choose this subject
This girl come online and she had the option to choose what role she wishes to play however this girl knew what she was, there was no question her mind, she is a slave online as was as real life and online helped her understand that part of her better, even though there is a vast difference.
Real life is something she is waiting to experience and looks forward to fulfilling the very need inside her. When this girl comes online she gives herself a 98% percent, or at least tries to but sometimes real life pushes it nasty head in there and creates a few problems. No one forced collared her or holds a gun to her head to make her stay here, she knows this is who she is and she actually longs for and looks forward to the time that she can be here.
There are times this girl gets very upset at online but she is a slave therefore doesn’t have much choice but to do what is command of her and as they say make the best of the situation no matter what it is. Such as going back to whites once again. It is hard for this girl to go backwards after working so hard to get to the red pleasure silks she is in. She has learned to put her feelings into her actions and finds it hard to stop.
But she is a slave online and therefore she respects the wishes of the Free around her. This girl has learned that in taking the good with the bad she finds the roleplay experience more rewarding. This girl also understand that roleplay is still a far cry away from what the real gorean slaves experienced. They were not given the choice of the Masters collar that they wished to beg. She would do anything that it took to please the Free. In order to be as much of that of what role she has chosen this girl understands that her time online needs to be as close to what is expected as possible.
She honestly finds the role of a slave rewarding even though it can be tough. This girl tries to keep the parts of her real life persona from coming though and sometimes finds that she has to bite her tongue rather than say something that would consider to be disrespectful to a Free. That part of the online role play has help teach this girl self control that really has had a benefit in her real life.( tho we all know adreanna has a mouth on her and is not affraid to speak her mind)
This girl finds great joy in being a slave since it is so much like her real persona. She loves to be able to do things for other people, if nothing else to see them smile. This girl sometimes struggles with her slavery and over the years that she has been online has gone. She tries to always put her Frees wishes before her own, and behave in a way that she knows that will make them happy. Learning to control her moods has took sometimes but she will admit she still has days that she struggles but she tries and does go running off to sulk.
This girl also knows that she would never make it in the world of Gor if there was such a real place. Someday she really as to fight that since the real life part of her has to fight the feelings inside, and the online slave her understands that if she does then she is failing to be that of what her role-play character is.
Over the years that this girl has been online she has learned that when she is in a bad mood she needs to work harder to do the things that are expected of her, and she finds when she does, she feels good inside that she has over come another road block in learning about herself.
Her first concern when coming online is to do all that things that are expected of her by her Free and the home she belongs to her she is very loyal devoted dedicated and dependable and honest, She fails sometimes and she not only feels that failure online but real life and makes her work that much harder to over come that part of her that needs to be worked on.
This girl learned that she can really find rewards by achieving the best online role play character that she can. That she gets as much from it as she puts into it, and the more she puts into the greater that the rewards are. This girl knows that she has grown a lot over the years that she has been online, from the first shy girl that didn’t know anything that was looking for something to help her understand what drives her to the girl that she is now. She strives to continue to learn and grow every day learing something...she is self trained GOR..she was bound and determined to make it in online GOR....she thinks shes done one hell of a job...this is a deep commitment to her.....
"Being a slave is a whole way of life, involving a total modality of existence. There is a great deal more to it than simply serving a master in the furs."
Players of Gor, pg. 380
Players of Gor, pg. 380
Respect, Loyalty, Devotion and Obedience are the minimum requirements of my own slavery. This girl requires them of herself, because it is the minimum that her Master deserves and has a right to. A girl holds her Master to be above all others, in all things, especially in Honor. To have a Master of true Honor is to have a Master one can be devoted to, can stand loyally by, can give unquestioning obedience to, and to hold in deepest regard and respect. It is a part of this girl’s heart to yearn for that. To Honor Him is to give ones devotion, obedience, loyalty and respect. To give Him these things is to love Him. To Love Him is to belong to Him. To belong to Him is to be His slave.
A slave’s role on Gor is simple to serve and please the Free.
A slave, be they male or female serve at their Master/Mistresses pleasure. They do that which is needful by their Master/Mistress for them to do. Whether that duty is to work in a field, serve in a tavern, clean a stable, transcribe accounts, bathe them, cook, clean, or pleasure them in the furs, the slave’s role is to fulfill the desires of their owner. To give her owner, complete unmitigated submission and obedience. To yield fully being but an instrument of their Masters will.
Within the eyes of a slave shines a star of desire. A desire to be needed. A need to be desired. Within the eyes, there is love. Love for who they are, a love for what they do. Within the eyes, there is devotion. Devotion to making themselves better. Devotion to always be pleasing. Within the eyes there is respect. Respect to those who nurture and provide. Respect to those in which they serve. Within the eyes, is lust. Lust brought forth by desire, need, love, devotion and respect. Lust to provide All that their Owner desires.
Within the heart of a slave thunders a pulsating need. A need to love and honor. A need to be Owned. Within the heart, there is love. Love for He who Owns her. A love for serving Him. Within the heart, there is devotion. Devotion to her collar. Devotion to her home. Within the heart, there is ache. Ache to fulfill all that is wished. Ache to earn the love. Within the heart is a burn. Burn to surrender all that they are. A burn to always be found pleasing by their Owner.
Within the belly of a slave rages an inextinguishable fire. A fire to be slave. A fire to be all that He requires. Within the fire, there is undying love. Undying for the One who has Freed her. Undying for the one who desires her. Within the fire is unbreakable trust. Unbreakable to He who has guided her true. Unbreakable to He who has punished and loved her with the same hand. Within the fire is unchangeable respect. Unchangeable to He who has always respected her heart. Unchangeable to He who has always respected the value of her surrender
Within the mind of a slave, is the ability for all which she feels. The ability to love. The ability to respect. The ability to trust. The ability to devote her whole to him. Within the mind, in the intelligence to take her the one step further to please. Within the mind is the vision of He who guides her always true.